So I haven't been on here since May. I guess I just got caught up with other things, and this was one of the things that I dropped. I'm just dropping in to say that I might be back a little more frequently. Unfortunately without pictures. I moved out of my parents house, and they're the ones with the awesome camera. I'm saving up for a Nikon D40 though since I got a job, so be expecting pictures. In like, May. Lol. Maybe I'll get back into writing though. For the sake of you guys.

i'm afraid to grow up.
i really am.

everything seems to be going downhill lately. not only for me, but for my friends, my family, and especially the country. my cousin eric matthew miller died on november 15, after only twenty-three short years. my family has been having a very rough time with it.

one of my best friends is also having a very hard time dealing with a few things and it makes me feel horrible because there's really nothing that i can do or say to make anything any better. and i hate that sense of helplessness; it makes me feel like a bad friend.

and then there's the country's economy that is literally in the gutters. i know that there are people out there are in a much worse situation than i, but its getting very bad for my family. we could lose our business any day now (my parents own an air conditioning installation company. my dad works on the a/c and my mom is the secretary). i don't know what we would do if we lost the business.

i don't know. everything just really sucks right now and i really hope that everything gets better. soon.

i haven't been on da in quite a while. i have so many pictures i need to upload and even a few poems (GASP!), but that'll have to wait until another day. because right now, i need to go to bed. lol. maybe tomorrow if i have time and remember, i'll put up some stuff for your viewing pleasure. =]

i just found out we're going to spend this weekend at the beach. i'm sooo excited. you guys have no idea. even though i live maybe an hour away from the beach, we haven't spent a weekend there in probably two years. i'm mega excited. you can be expecting tonsss of pictures from me next week.